I mean…if you feel like it. If anybody is reading. Or doesn’t hate me for some reason. It is late; I bet this is the wrong time to be asking. And you don’t have to if you don’t want to. I’ll survive without one… I guess I just feel a little self-centered right now. I don’t mean to be needy or a burden. No, it’s okay; I’m okay. I just felt the need for a little affection, a small sense of belonging. That we can share something in common, if it’s a fandom or just a hug. Or both. So if you’re in the mood… I’ll hug you, too.
dsadfdsfg Guys, I’m so confused.
I get really frustrated and defensive when I can’t figure out what’s going on with people or when people keep secrets from only me because it seems like I’m always the one kept out of the loop, but they they say cryptic things, and it’s not FAIR to be teased like that. What’s going on; sometimes people are being in-character as a fictional character and sometimes maybe they’re acting really strangely in real life, and what is reaaaaal? Are people taking fictional characters this seriously, or are we talking about real people here? I KNOW THIS POST DOESN’T MAKE ANY SENSE, BUT I DON’T UNDERSTAND RIGHT NOW.
Sometimes I don’t fully grasp the situation, or people don’t make sense, and then I end up hurting people’s feelings, and whaaaaaat, I don’t know if people are in serious trouble or if this is acting, or if it’s just a strange form of expression, and I can’t help but worry, but I feel it’s rude and stupid to ask and not understand. And I feel I shouldn’t talk to them because I think I caused the problem in the first place, and I don’t want to make it worse with my presence? People make me want to poke holes in my brain.
And I hate cliques and inner circles. They make my stomach boil. Probably with envy, and it’s probably wrong of me. I want to be special to the people I like or look up to. But whoever I like is liked by so many other people; I’m just another face in the crowd. I want to be special to my teachers. I want to be known by the creators, actors, and fandom-famous. It’s selfish and unrealistic, I know. But how do other people do it? How do you get connected? I don’t have artistic talent. All I have is my brain and ideas. Maybe that’s not good enough. I get jealous of the people who get close to the people I look up to instead of me. And if I ever show it or act that way, I probably alienate my idols further. I don’t want a bad reputation… I want to be loved. I’m wrong… I know I’m wrong, but what do I do?
I need respect. I’ve always done best as a senior member of a group. One of the main/top people. Not the very top but with connections to the top, a good relationship with those in power. I’ve discovered this about myself multiple times. I’m a senior/mentor type. I can’t function as a newbie, low on the totem pole. I’m a self-conscious neurotic headcase in new situations. But I get so good after I’ve gotten experience and leveled up. I’m a kind person when people look up to me. I just have to get there. It’s hard to get there… How do I get there…?
I just want to belong. Why is that so hard?
The boy, who is an awful awful person, made me play Which, and lied and told me it wasn’t scary and then wouldn’t help me when I was freaking out.
Despite all that, however, I will concede that it is really well done. It’s really short, but everything comes together really well. It’s creepy and atmospheric (fuck you, person who came up with the sound design it scared the shit outta me), and the story is simple, but well-executed. Because I am a nice person, however, I will warn you that it is very creepy, and there is some violence in the end which can be very disturbing for some.
If you’re all right with all that, though, you should definitely check it out because it’s short, quick and free.
I just played this game a few minutes ago, recommended by Seiwaltz. I tend to get scared easily, so I asked him if it was a screamer or if I have to defend myself in real time. He assured me it was just creepy, but, well… I still ended up screaming like a squeaky toy at one point. …My brother somehow incidentally recorded it on his iphone. You’d think I was being murdered, or something. So then I was extremely paranoid and hid in a corner until I calmed down. I was braver after that.
It’s an interesting riddle. I played it through a second time just to see the differences. Worth the play, I think, if you’re not afraid of being creeped-out. Or temporarily terrified, in my case.
- Kumara
(Reblogging my post from Sei and my new little gaming blog.)
Jake stop.
Stop what you doing right now.
You slowly loosing favor in my eyes right now.
Jake.
Jake.
Stop.
Because he thinks he’s trying to save his home planet? I seriously don’t understand you people. Use your brain things.
hello jake english you have just made it to my least favorite character list welcome to hell
So wait you hate him because he is confused and trying to save billions of people? Or is this post a joke?
Somebody please show me a Meenah fan who isn’t an idiot; I really want to like you people.
I just made the dorkiest thing. But I have no regrets.
God, I just, love you so much freya
Nick of time
i have Tony’s title sdkfjahskj
This is AWESOME. But personally, I’d change Thor to Heir of Breath and Hawkeye to Seer of Space, I think? I like Void, too, though. … And Nick could be Bard of Light. asdgfdgaf
YOU HURT MY FAVORITE CHARACTER GUESS WHO YOU ARE NOW MISTER I PUNCH PEOPLE FOR FUN
YOU ARENT EVEN MY LEAST FAVORITE CHARACTER YOU WENT RIGHT UNDER THE LIST, YOU DISGUST ME YOU SCUM
These are PRICELESS. I literally LOL’d.
I USED TO SHIP DIRK JAKE BUT THEN I TOOK A YOU FUCKER YOU PUNCHED MY FAVORITE CHARACTER TO THE HOMESTUCK
RUDSYJXFHKDCISKZX
JAKE I HATE YOU SO MUCH
I SHIP YOU WITH DIE
Please tell me this is a joke. Because I am laughing.
… DAWWWWWW.
(Source: mavericktrickster)
